Surviving a day in Chennai.

Before we start, I’ll set the field why I did this in the first place.

Due to some agonizing personal and private reasons, I did not want to go to college on this particular day, and I did not also want to return home to an array of boring and annoying questions from my then on-leave family and its members. I had around 130 rupees and borrowed a 100 from a friend to whom I will be eternally grateful.
There were no friends I could turn to that day, since fortunately all my friends were responsible enough to go to college or work.(sarcasm intended). I was in full college attire with shoes and all.

And so with 230 rupees in hand I set out to spend a day Chennai, alone.
Since this was all pre-planned I had just a note and a novel in my bag, my earphones, my basic media phone, my kerchief (played an important role in the day) and a funky sun-glass (and an Imaginary Girlfriend).

It was around 7.30 when it was all decided, and I realized that I had around 9 hours to pass.
Seems like a lot of time doesn’t it?
Yes it is.

Without out further ado I took a bus to Besant nagar got a 50 rupees pass. I reached there by 30 minutes and the roads which I knew to be bustling with people and vehicles was empty.
I went to the shore, and pure bliss.
Sun over Sea. It was some of the best sights a person could witness on a morning. Taking that all in, I thought, “okay, maybe this day could go well”.

At a distance I heard someone calling out to me. It was a PC.  A Police Constable.
I walked to him with fear, as if i had killed a person.

He called me and inquired ‘What is the time kanna?’.

And few minutes later we were walking on the shore talking about all those love pairs who were there.
We went to a nearby Kaiyenthi bhavan and he offered me to buy me a breakfast. Yes he BOUGHT his own breakfast. I thanked him an left on my way.
I got the idea of returning to the beach,  sit there and read my novel.
But, it was 9 o clock. and now I did not know what to do. The sun was also showing up.

I boarded the bus towards Thiruvanmiyur but due to some unknown reason my mind asked me to get down at Madhya Kailash. I walked all the way to IIT in an Idea of visting a friend in IIT. but I remembered he was out of town. I started walking towards koturpuram in an idea of visiting Anna centenary library but my luck was acting upon me. It was closed that day for maintenance.
With nowhere to go I started walking, With earphones in my ears I felt like I owned the road. and I incidentally reached Birla Planetarium, which was also closed.

And suddenly my phone rang. It was my Brother. Completely Ignoring the call I carried on.

Time being 10.30 am, my stomach was beginning to give distress calls.
I again put aside the idea of reading my novel in park nearby.
Since my 50 rupees was spent in bus pass. I just had a 180 remaining.
I reached a small shop to buy something to buy where a Heated argument was happening between two people. And all of a sudden they began punching up each other.

Wondering what it could be, I bought a biscuit pack and a polo stick.
I sat on a bench put up there watching the fight. I struck up a conversation with the shop guy but he did not know why they were fighting. By now They were cussing each other.
Suddenly they stopped and walked towards me and passed me. They asked the shopkeeper something, who pointed to me.
To be Frank I was quite shocked at his gesture. They approached me and asked me something.
I was a little bewildered.
‘Thambi, Time enna pa?’
They were drunk.
I told them it was 11.15 am and left the place silently.
‘What the hell is it with people and time today?!’

The sun showing all its glory to people on earth, I was walking with my sunglasses and earphones blaring in my ears.
I did not know what that place was.
I found a bus stop and sat there. I was the only person in that place.
After almost half an hour there still was no bus.
I just thought of leaving, and a bus came by that read teynampet.

‘Oh Yes!’, I thought. ‘I could watch a movie in sathyam’

With just 165 rupees in hand I had to plan my lunch and movie with that.
I boarded the bus. and a sudden Brainwave.

I realized I was moving in the wrong direction. Away from Theatre.

I got down in a hurry. and boarded the right bus.
It was 12 o clock sharp when I got down. The sun was showing off its lighting skills.

On the way I saw a paani poori shop, I spent around 30 rupees for my lunch there.
On the street corner I saw a Amma Unavagam.
I faceplamed my self repeatedly.

I went to sathyam and took a ticket for this hollywood movie. It was about some alien outlaws protecting people.
I thought, ‘At last the day is gonna be done, the movie might take atleast till 4.30′.

The inter mission passed.

and by 3.15 I was forcefully chucked out of the theatre.

There again I was standing not knowing what to do.
I took a polo and put my earphones on again.

I was walking towards nowhere when a mother was taking her little kid home from school.
This kid cute as a little panda cub, was telling some stories to his mom, something about some fight. the mom was listening intently. Such pure love only women can give.

I thought I was screwed cause I just had 15 rupees in hand.
I had no other way but to reach home. I was at my wit’s end. and had no idea.
I took the bus towards my home and yet again my mind acted up and I got down near Semmozhi poonga.
The entry fee being 5 rupee, I entered and went around the whole park enjoying the beauty of nature that was starkly different from the city outside that was.

There a lot girls. Pretty girls.
Some single, some paired. But most of them pretty. (isn’t nature the best?)

Once again I due to some reason did not want to read my novel there.

I left the park around 4.50 and embarked my bus.
There were a three girls sitting in the last row conversing in English.
That bus being surprisingly and fairly empty, I sat in seat that was before them.

One of the Girls commented at me, something about my appearance, It irritated me and agitated me.
I kept quiet.
Though my earphones were on I could not help but hear their conversation about me.
Now, remember that I had been roaming all day, my face was over tanned, My dress was ruffled and my hair was matt and I was sweating profusely.
Their conversation was aimed on men like us who didn’t have decency and culture.
That we were some kind of I country brutes who always wanted to flirt and we were the reason women did not have security here.

I still was maintaining my silence.

My stop was nearing, so I stood up. Quickly this girl gave a staring glance at me and turned head head.

I did something I’d never imagined I’d do.

I went up to her and said,’Ummm excuse me, I could not help but listen what you were saying, Not all men are alike, not all of us behave or talk aloud and indecently as you just did. Yes, That maybe your opinion but here this is my opinion too.’

She was dumbfounded and stuttered something. Her friends shocked at this sudden incident.

Before Getting down, I said,’and hey you’re not even ogle worthy’.
Her Friends chuckled.

In my ears, a song from VIP had started.

I reached home, refreshed and sat down to read that novel at last.
Inside that was a 100 rupee note.

Fate is mysterious isn’t it?
~Kerchief was my best bet against pollution there.


The makes-you-think-deep post.

Life is a Bitch.

Don’t think. Yet.

I’m going to put forth a very simple yet meaningful question. ‘What is the purpose of life?’

The instant you read the above question you might delve into the depth of your thoughts for an answer or just disregard this post as another one of those inspirational shite.
But I ask you to read further. you will not regret it.

Most of my readers and friends will know that this part of life -where you’re about to or have finished your under grad- is and is going to be very difficult or rather dazed, but let us not venture further into that cause there are various other blogs, sites and movies that tell you about that.

But almost all of us in this stage wonder what is the purpose of all this complications we impose upon ourselves and what will be the ramifications of these in future?

There is is this awful feeling that comes when the things you believe so faithfully are not true.
I will show it to you.

What if all this is for nothing? What if you die the next day you get into your most dreamed job? What if world apocalypse begins after you propose to that someone? What if Aliens attack us after you get an A+ in math? Very depressing right?

This is all appalling to our human senses.
and talking about senses, do you know that we don’t only have 6 senses but somewhere around 14?
MindFuck right?

Again, why are we talking about all this? oh yeah the purpose of life.
See? so are we leading a life that is not true?
are we being fooled by others and ourselves?
Well, the answer would be a Yes and a No and a Maybe.

Yes is for ‘Are we being fooled?’
No is for ‘Are we being fooled by others?’
Maybe is for ‘Are we being fooled by ourselves?’

You would know why by now.
Awful feeling yet?
Yes, Life is a Bitch.

Once again, the purpose? We’re there. Almost.

In all your life you would Have had certain goal(s) at different periods.
At times you might have reached those goals or you might have failed them.
but just after the goal was definitively achieved or lost, there must’ve been a temporary lull in life.
There will arise a question ‘What next?’.

No one knows the answer for that, well at least not a solid one unless and until someone or something interferes.
This point is where life becomes confusingly clear.

This Clarity is that ‘Change is inevitable, Change is eternal’.
You might wonder how this writer is gonna link it with the purpose of life.

Purpose of life is Change.
Purpose of life is TO Change.

Now I have arrived at the conclusion of my Blog and you must’ve understand the purpose of life.
Or have you?

Wondering why this blog is so vague on so many levels? (Wow, I see you shaking you head violently!)
To prove what ever is said of course.

Choice is Eternal.
~Everything is Nothing, Nothing is Anything.

Of Scire and Gott.

This controversy has existed ever since.
God Vs. Science.
On reading the above sentence we immediately begin thinking about atom, planets, space, magic, temples, ancients and what not?!.

The words seem most opposite as possible. You know why.
-In the view of religion Science is seen as the Destroyer of faith and belief of people over the Deity, though this faith is one of major reason for greatest miracles in life.
-Here Science does not exactly view Religion as a competitor, but in its path of progress Science does disprove some of the religion’s greatest beliefs and promises.

But lets try viewing Religion and Science as different paths towards one destination.
That destination designated as God or ultimate moksha in religion and as the unambiguous knowledge and evident answers or ultimate awareness in Science.

Lets start from the Beginning. The very Beginning.
-Here science is almost at the brink of proving that Big bang theory is true. Yes it is almost, but not proved and also there are various other theories like string theory and steady state theory which can be a strong competitor to Big bang theory.
-But our religions prove to better at origin of universe, where a divine entity skillfully designed the whole system. Each religion has its own unique and very logical(?) explanation for the origin of universe or at least earth.
Religion kinda sweeps away on this.

Now to the creatures and living beings on earth.
-almost all religion state humans as the first created living being and other animals for his use. There is also a belief that humans were created in the image of the ultimate being.
-Science makes not mistake here. Via the brains and intelligence of Darwin’s Theory of evolution Science clearly states that humans were merely a by-product from the nature’s lab.
In fact everything is.

Now to a more closer look on this much argued species, no not the cats. Its us the humans.
-Science generally divides things into ‘living’ and ‘non-living’ things and we’re fortunately ‘living’. Science tell us that humans are born, developed, grown and dead as a part of the natural selection process. This natural selection is the main reason we exist or not.
-Most Religions on the other hand tell us that humans are merely a vessel for the soul which is eternal or has a longer life to tread. There is a Deity for every process of the soul and body in religion like Hades as for after life and Shiva for destruction.

Though this ‘soul’ concept is debatable in the field of Science and this can be taken as a point where Religion and Science begin to merge into a single path.

There are research proofs that some kind of energy leaves the body at the time of death.
Though this energy is spiritually called a ‘soul’, science also adapts this term.
There are photographic and research based proofs that the body becomes somewhat ’empty’ after death. So Religions and Science Hi5 each other here.

It the case of Space and time, Hindu mythology has predicted about the nine planets and their positions almost accurately.
In Mayan and Aztec Myth there are evidences and artifacts of a plane like figure.
This figure can supposedly levitate over earth. So planes eh?
There is a Reference to Nuclear explosions and its effects in Bible.
Ancient Egyptians perfected the art of preserving dead bodies by a method called ‘Embalming’. This embalming is a kind of science which is very difficult to perform even now. This embalming was used to Preserve the body of their God Kings for their after life.

In almost every Religion of God worshiping there is a after life.
This after life takes the so called soul to places away from earth like Hell, Heaven, Spirit world, Midworld, Netherrealm, Underworld, Abyss, Limbo, Purgatory and many more.
These places denote that life is not only possible on earth but also on other planets or realms.
This also Signifies that there may be more than one dimension or realm.

Now we reach the closure. God.
How does science define God or rather Universal intelligence?
“A superhuman being or spirit worshipped as having power over nature or human fortunes; a deity.”Religion theorizes that God is supreme being who can only be achieved or realized by means of masterful control of senses or Total awareness.
This awareness is said be obtained by meditation, chanting of mantras or pure belief and faith at times.
In science this ‘masterful control’ means Knowledge.
And knowledge is got from Proof, Facts and evidences from sciences.

At this moment I’d like to give my own theory.
Let us consider that God(s) exists.
What if our ancients studied the universe and its characteristics and gained knowledge enough to become Totally aware and achieve Moksha?
What if these people became various Gods of Various Locations thereby forming Various religions.

You’d also wonder why this knowledge was not bestowed to other people. May be because This knowledge would be devastating in the hands of wrong people.
That is why Such great knowledge was redacted and refined. and was put up in such a way that only deserving people would reach it.

God might have been human.

So I suppose that I have given enough reasons for you to believe science and religion are one and the same.
Let us hope for the best.

~Anbe Sivam

Battling the bullies.

Everybody knows RAPE right?
Yes, surely everybody does.
Because It is what the world sees often, and forgets.

But we totally forget to forget something else that comes up at times, rarely.

Oh, know its not ragging. that is something to be talked about later.

But bullying it is something of its own class, something that needs instant attention to be paid.
Let us see why.
Before I begin, Yes I was bullied, I still am being bullied, and I know how to bully too.

Have you seen the person who is being bullied?
If you have noticed, you will know that the person will be some what special or unique from others.
Its not your House or Sherlock or Hannibal unique.
Its this unnoticed or rather a very significant quality they that have might irritate others.
and why do you get irritated?
cause you’re jealous.

Bullying is not only done in person, there are a quite a few types of bullying that can shock us.

-Physical Bullying
-Verbal Bullying
-Emotional Bullying
-Cyber Bullying
-Disability Bullying
-Legal Bullying
-Parental Bullying
-Prison Bullying
-School Bullying

Bullying is not done by a single person. No, it is done by a bunch of people who are either scared or scarred by the growth of the person they bully.

To people outside the Bully-Wimpy circle it looks like simple joke or a gag.
But it actually clash of egos and the cold war is not all that cold. It is Raging hot.

There are times where the Wimpy counters back with either sarcasm or their skill.
But it enrages them more.
How could they Accept such defeat?
It gets worse.
Now the insults and humiliation get stronger and it becomes personal.
The bully group lashes out at the Wimp.
Though this might seem like a simple issue and you all might wonder why I  compared this with Raping.

Here is why.
-Over half, about 56 percent, of all students have witnesses a bullying crime take place while at school.
-Among students of all ages, homicide perpetrators were found to be twice as likely as homicide victims to have been bullied previously by their peers.
-For every suicide among young people, there are at least 100 suicide attempts for bullying.
-Over 14 percent of high school students have considered suicide, and almost 7 percent have attempted it.
-College Bullying is fatal to most of the people who encounter it, as it is more depressing psychologically here than it was when we were younger.
-Bullying is more of a emotional related problem and hence it comes out rarely.
-Bullied people are either left with a scarred physical or mental health.
-Bullies were also victims of being bullied but it doesn’t make it fair to bully others.

To Bullies out there:
Why do you bully them?
-You are good for nothing.
-You have very low self esteem.
-You despise yourself for being dumb.
-You have no feelings.
-You are sad and alone.
-You were hurt? but so are people who you bully.
-You enjoy seeing others getting crippled, physically or emotionally.
-You have no life

To others.
If you know a Bully or a Wimpy.
Don’t ignore them.
They need special attention and help.
Do your best to lift them up.

To the people getting Bullied.
Don’t worry.
‘The best way to handle Stupidity is to be Patient’

~Silence is only frightening to people who are compulsively verbalizing.